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i don't wanna be sad when the world ends

by halloween costume contest

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1.
your town 02:20
i visited your town today i was just passing through and i could’ve sworn that i saw the ghost of you i just walked around the market where you worked and it felt weird knowing that’s where you stood a cop honked his horn at me cause i stopped for too long but i didn’t care cause i was just writing this song i wish i stopped by your grave but i'm not sure where it is and i didn't ask anyone cause i was too afraid
2.
i crashed my car in my dream it’s been happening for a few weeks and i’m not sure what’s wrong with me but i hope it’s not leading towards something bleak it’s all happening so slow on the way to a friends show i crashed my car on chase high road i crashed my car on chase high road
3.
when i look into a mirror i hate myself even more "why do you always close your eyes in pictures?" fucked up self esteem wrinkled parts of my jeans lots of hate in the seams red dots on my face but there's more in this case shaved my head in spring because i hate what my mind thinks stitches in my eyebrows the way i feel in crowds i just wanna be covered up by clouds the way one hair sticks out and some stay down i think it's time i just stayed inside my house when i look into a mirror i hate myself even more "why do you always close your eyes in pictures?" fucked up self esteem wrinkled parts of my jeans lots of hate in the seams red dots on my face but there's more in this case shaved my head in spring because i hate what my mind thinks
4.
"it’s so quiet in here i can’t get used to it" is what my grandma said the day after you died because your oxygen machine was always on and filled the silence that or the westerns, news, and football on the tv "it’s just hard when they start talking about him" is what my dad said on the drive home the day after you died i guess i can see why i’m not excited about going back to work on friday and hearing ‘i’m sorry for your loss’ a million times i appreciate it but i'd rather not be reminded in a place where i’m alone with my thoughts and crying in the bathroom
5.
so this is how the world ends i hope it won't be too soon it's like we're back in the fifties hiding under desks hoping bombs wont drop like soupy said "i hope i'm in my living room with best friends" i miss them so much i don't wanna be sad when the world ends
6.
i’m staying up tonight i have no choice at 1 am in a waffle house with my best friends they just ripped a fucking gig and i was feeling proud i thought tonight was gonna suck because i felt like shit when i woke up and just wanted to be alone but with the waffles, toast and sweet tea in front of me along with lee talking about how they met marty i was feeling pretty happy
7.
i saw the note in your dresser drawer it said you can't live anymore fast forward you’re two months pregnant with your first kid not including the first one that left i’m sorry we haven’t talked in a while but two months ago you said i‘m gonna be an uncle we’re not even related but it feels like we are i remember all the nights eating taco bell in your car listening to "vessel" in a town i’d never been to but it was the one that you were raised through i saw the note in your dresser drawer you said goodbye to all you said goodbye to all but you can’t keep crawling on your hands and knees on this pale blue dot we’ve always lived on i remember the nights going to shows and it just goes to show that you’ve always been there you were there on the night that i turned 18 you always said "you should go be free" but i think it’s time you took your own advice
8.
i’m sorry i’ll just go ahead and say it before i disappear i’ll be sure to turn the lamps off so you can sleep before i disappear

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dedicated to my dad and my grandfather

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released August 21, 2020

halloween costume contest is josh allen

all songs written and performed by josh allen
recorded by chris clary at couch king studios from march-june 2020

chris and caleb clary - vocals on "chase high road"

photography by jesse peeler
instagram.com/jfilmphoto
ashley stevens - ghost

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my family, ashley, feelings club, stress fractures, central street electric tattoo, calmness, al, callie, caleb, leah, cait, sydney, jess, acrobat unstable, duke, don, kaitlin, mackie, mitch, hey there rabbit, maya atkins, jail socks, your spirit dies, field medic, ol' sport, the milestone club, almost heaven salon & spa, hospital bracelet, bince, yes chef!, theo, isaiah, luck doom, ferret bueller, annabeth, every single artist i’ve had the opportunity of playing a show with, and anyone who has ever come to a show, bought some merch or streamed my music. the support i’ve gotten from y’all since starting this project means the world to me. thank you so much. i hope you like these songs.

"Josh Allen, a native of North Carolina, a couple of years ago began bringing a project to life called Halloween Costume Contest. Through their first EP "A Ghost in Autumn", they left us before a set of songs collected where they put the value of the off tone and the more enveloping environments around certain withered states of mind. Positioning themselves as a chronicler of sensations that come and go in the same way as the seasons, they undoubtedly achieved an exciting cover letter. Some time later they are back with their second work "I Don't Wanna Be Sad When The World Ends", finding ourselves before an emo folk song format with which to delve fully into all the contradictory thoughts that flutter in their head, all using their guitar almost exclusively and an enormous sensitivity to capture all kinds of experiences that seem to be consumed by irremediable way."

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